Better feelings

Today was not a total disaster after all! It was on the verge of being like the other day where I was being sad and then everyone I spoke to that day was so upset over one thing. Ah, yes. It was the day that the scramble for mini 2 came out.
Everyone was just so [...]

Hmm…sad faces.

I skipped mass today in the morning. I wondered how much I really wanted to go to the morning mass at Holy Cross. Did I want to attend mass with a priest whose accent is almost difficult to understand, a terrible choir and perhaps feel myself in spirit? Or… attend a beautifully decorated church, greatly [...]

I’m tired! D: + Cookies!

The mark of a true introvert: getting upset that you’ve been out having a life and you haven’t gotten a chance to be cooped up in your room. :[
I just got home from hiking at the Forest of Nisene Marks in Aptos, CA. The air was to easy breathe, the town was quaint, and the [...]

nanowrimo write-in event.

Wow!
I stayed up late last night, feel most rushed and compelled to do something about being so behind all the other nanowrimo novelists. I wrote some 1,000 words, and retired for the night and awoke early the next day. Earlier than usual out of excitement or eagerness I suppose. I jumped on that novel and [...]

:(

Wah, I’m sad for many things today..

Avoidance

There are some things that I feel compelled to avoid. For instance, my Facebook inbox which holds several messages and letters from T.J., or updates from mutual friends. Or… music that we’d both listen to. Or lyrics that have something to do with our situation.
It’s a sort of withdrawal process at this point.
But lately, I [...]

R.B.

I say that it’s hard nowadays to have friends who are current with me. I don’t discard the remaining friends from high school. In fact, I just had a conversation with one, both wondering why we are still talking to each other. And we all phase in and out of our greatest movements throughout the [...]

Hard times and Halloween

Much has happened in the short amount of time that has passed. T.J.’s way of alleviating the tension between us was not to cut ties again with his ex, but to cut ties with me. He reasoned in a late night video chat that I was no longer the person he once loved, that I [...]

Day 2 of searing hatred

In all my frustrations with love, I had ended last night blowing off T.J. for what he had done as though I was his girlfriend with significant leverage, and immediately ignored him for the rest of night. I was fed up and angry at how everyone was unintentionally playing mind games to sway me to [...]

stormed off

Today is very upsetting. This whole month has been so much in turmoil; I don’t think I’ve ever experienced this much drama in the past. The crap that happened earlier in the month is something that I can handle. But when emotions are tugging me this way and that with a given ultimatum, I feel [...]