annoying feeling

*sigh* I can’t seem to shake this feeling.
I think this will pass…
I can’t meditate right now, not with this feeling.
and I am worried for V.J., she is going through the same crap I am going through. Her grandfather insists I help her listen to him so his advice can be heard, but I can’t from [...]

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o_O

Epiphany

I’ve finally found it in me to seek my spirituality for answers to what has been going on in the physical plane. To begin, I must wake early. And I must busy myself with Etty Hillesum first before any other great writer. It is a sweet transition as she begins her journal with carnal frustrations [...]

damn it

my chakras are so messed up.

break a few ribs to do it yourself

F#@%. I cannot stand this. I’m surrounded by stupid cowards who don’t have the balls to admit they want to get with me even though they’ll flirt, hint, or talk shit about your ex. If I show no interest, they’ll deny anything ever happened at the slightest opportunity. “Play it cool; God forbid I end [...]

Swimming!

I’m so excited I’m going swimming with friends today!!
I’m so ready to start practicing the butterfly stroke!

please god

My thyroid is shutting down again. Please God don’t let this happen before my exams. I can’t let this happen right now… how am I supposed to be free of stress? I need help

Want to cut?

I can’t concentrate, I can’t study. My mind is racing, and I can’t calm it down. My emotions are racing.. I don’ t know what to feel. Yet when I’m prompted, I’m emotionless. I sit there, staring at the laptop. If someone makes eye contact, or smile, or acknowledge me with so much as a [...]

I have to do well I swear.

I did it again!!! I looked at the exam schedule to see how far away I am from covering everything, and I got overwhelmed by it allll.
But really, how far am I really, I feel like I’m still keeping up a decent pace even though I have a habit of taking [...]

Hm.

Really annoyed and lost with how I’m supposed to be right now.